QUESTION: Masters, after spending years asking my inner self what my life mission was, in 1977 I saw a beautiful Light Being who told me to go to a farm to build a place where courses could be offered promoting spiritual awareness and the need and means to restore and preserve nature, which would be important for this changing time now occurring like one of the survival areas. I was told others would come to help. In 1984 I found the place as described, bought the land and worked the best way I could. Faced many difficulties along the way… Now I see myself basically alone, lost and the place closed useless… Was it all an illusion, an invention of my ego? What did I do wrong? What´s the lesson and what to do now? I will be very grateful if I deserve an answer. ~Ana, Brasil
ANSWER: Beings of the Light will never tell you what to do. They will give you suggestions but not dictate your actions. This entity was a discarnate who gave to you the dream it had but could not complete. It had not moved on because it wanted to interest someone else in fulfilling its desires.
You put tremendous pressure upon yourself to come up with a mission, a purpose for living that would allow you to help others. This did not help you but only gave you a ton or work that needed to be done. You created a dream based upon the wishes of another and then placed all of your energy into it.
This was an experience of going where you were directed and permitting yourself to think it was exactly what you wanted. If it had been useful to others, the energy would have drawn people to you to make it a success. It is time to start feeling for yourself and taking responsibility for your actions.
All people create the illusion they wish for their life. You did that, but only at the direction of another. Meditate on what your soul wishes to create for yourself. Don’t worry about helping others until you have been able to help yourself. Nothing is right or wrong; everything is just an experience that you can evaluate for the benefit it has provided you. Determine what you want and make it so.