Reality Check
QUESTION: Masters, I left my job impulsively two years back but since that day I am yearning for it again. These two years have been like a roller coaster ride for me. For the first time in my life, I came face to face with many harsh realities about my personal relationships (my husband has been unfaithful to me for the past nine years), my spiritual ascension, my own shortcomings, fears, and insecurities, and also a critical review of my current life of 38 years on this Earth. Please guide me. Was there a cosmic agenda in leaving my job behind, making me aware of all the above? I think I have learned enough lessons. Masters, I loved this particular job and wish to get it back again through cosmic intervention. I am still clueless what prompted me to leave this job and why I yearn for it from the day I left. Please guide me. ~Hansa, India
ANSWER: Your higher self, that part of your soul just outside your consciousness, thought it was time for you to have a reality check—to really see what was going on with and around you. Because you loved that job so much it became a sanctuary for you. It protected you from seeing what your husband was doing, and from realizing what you were not facing on your own spiritual path. Being free from its protection forced you back into the present reality to deal with day-to-day matters.
Since you left that employment you have done a great job of living in the moment and seeing what you had ignored while your sanctuary shielded you. Shedding the fears and insecurities further sharpened your awareness. You are now ready to venture forth on your own.
Go to your former employer and explain that you left because of personal problems that you sensed would interfere with your performance of the work. This is not a story because on an unconscious level that is exactly what happened. Explain how you have always loved the work and know you are now capable of giving them 100% of your attention. This is not the only job out there that will give you that same sense of belonging. Feel for the right place for you and you will make the connection.