Living with expectations
QUESTION: Masters I rejected my daughter on the day she was born because of how she looked. I felt nothing towards her during the first weeks, and I always wondered why did I like my nephew better than my own daughter. She’s now almost 2 months and every day I love her more, she’s my bundle of joy and I appreciate the fact that she “chose” me as her mother. The problem is that I feel that she does not love me as much as I love her and I FEEL THAT SHE IS NOT HAPPY WITH ME. I’m sorry if she felt rejected by her own mother. Do babies feel the energy around them, did she feel the REJECTION when she was born does she know that I love her a lot now and I’m sorry for what happened in the past!? ~Miamite, France
ANSWER: You need to get out of your own head and stop creating situations that make up fears and anxieties for you. Not everyone bonds immediately with their child, particularly when they have a preconceived notion of how that child is going to look. In your case, your slightly older nephew had developed his baby “cuteness” and you expected your daughter to be even more beautiful and cute when she came into the world because she was yours. She had a hard delivery and her features did not take on the “cuteness” for several weeks.
You are very hung-up on appearances and don’t open to the energetic sensations that accompany all people, such as love. The act of taking care of her, which has exhausted you at times, has allowed you to stop thinking about your disappointments and just feel her love. She does love you and is aware that your earlier reaction was part of a life lesson on judgment that you had to work out.
She loves you tremendously, but what you have sensed is her frustration that you don’t allow your feelings to overrule the conclusions you create with your mind. You are being totally controlled by third-dimensional ego judgment. You reach out to see what you think others are going to say about a situation rather than evaluating the situation yourself.
Your daughter is an advanced soul who has been to Earth many times and recognizes your behavior for what it is, even though you do not. She has come to help you learn to accept things as they are and not try to make them into something else. She will constantly fight against your unreasonable expectations and push you into delving into them because they are all part of life lessons.
Your life will be extremely smooth if you get rid of judgment, open to the feeling of love, and stop trying to micro-manage every aspect of life. Put your thinking on hold and activate your sense of feeling. Let your unconscious wisdom come through and help you enjoy this experience.