Early memories
QUESTION: Masters at the kitchen table, when babysitting us children, my Grandma Clara use to tell us the story of how her father had murdered her mother when she was 9. She left home at 14 to go work, as did her sisters. Because I heard it as a child, I never thought to question it. In adulthood I realized the implications of what she said. Years later I discover that my great grandmother had died of pancreatitis, and Clara was 15 not 9. My sister Marilyn said our grandmother never told that story. My childhood memory was concrete, no fantasy. In discussions we sisters have suggested that perhaps I was living in slightly different dimensions than the current one, in growing up, and perhaps heard the stories in one of them. My sister DJ suggested I actually heard my Clara’s thoughts about her mother’s death, telepathically. What is the reality? ~Margaret, USA
ANSWER: At the time Clara was sitting for you she had many memories of her childhood, and each one was a slightly different version of the truth. She felt abandoned by her parents and wished to assign blame to them for her feelings. Her mother was sickly from when Clara was about 9, so that was when her world started to fall apart. She always identified more with you than your sisters, so she “confided” her fearful memories to you and not to them.
Clara was a dreamer and had a vivid imagination and she drew you into the alternative line of thought, which made her a tragic survivor of a chaotic childhood. You could be very brooding as a child, and this fed into Clara’s feelings since she identified with this type of energy. In the intensity that you relished, you were sucked into this negative substitute for the reality she actually experienced.
Your sisters were more carefree and didn’t want to partake in anything that wasn’t fuzzy and soft and happy. Clara’s negative vibes went right over their heads as they played with their toys; you sat raptly attentive. In your sharing a part of Clara’s imaginings of her youth, you were able to help her see the way she thought things were as a nice story and something of which she could let go.
Reality is different for every person. It depends on what you accept as factual to you and how you interpret your position within that situation. When you have a dream that replays a movie you have seen or a story you have read and places you as a character therein, does that then become reality for you? Yes, to the degree you feel it is a part of your existence.
Let what resonates and feels right to you be accepted as a part of you. Don’t get hung up on what others seek to claim as their reality. You are seeing things from your own perspective.