Why, what, where, when?
QUESTION: Masters, recently everything feels totally confused, my place of work, my home, even the work that I am doing… I know that this will pass and eventually there will be abundance and well being, I just do not understand any of what is in front of me at this curious time. When will I meet my beloved? When will I truly serve? When will my life purpose be actualized? When will I find peace in the sanctuary of God alone and live the life I know I am destined to live? I feel alone and tired, weary from everything, please give me some guidance as to where I am meant to be and what best serves my growth for good, for God and my children. Why do I have such a deep connection to Bali and if so will I eventually live there and what work will I do there and will this best serve the highest and best of both my children? ~Priya, UK
ANSWER: Things are perceived as confusing because you are trying to get them to fit into your idea of what they should be and do. You have an intense need to control through knowing exactly what is coming next. You need to let go of control and enter the flow of energy that is your life. As you engage in the need to know, you live in the future and the past, for comparison, and never in the now.
Living in the now allows you to see what is around you and how you can use it to create the world you desire. You are sure that there are specific things that must come into your life for it to be complete—that is completely false! Yes, you did decide to have some life lessons during this lifetime, but you left a lot of things up in the air to bring into your existence as you encountered them.
There is no pre-determined beloved, exact track you were to follow, even whether you would have a period in your life where you would serve others and not just your family, or any of the many things you feel you have missed in this life. Throw out your imagined game plan of requirements and just live.
Follow the intuitional feelings you have that are getting stronger. There are no absolutes in this world, just possibilities to play with while you are here. “Peace in the sanctuary of God”—again this is merely your desire. The sanctuary is within yourself. Find the total peace and quiet that exists in the unconditional love of the soul.