Connection to essence and Source
QUESTION: Masters, I´m 54-year-old woman. I wonder why there`s a kind of loneliness as a theme in my whole life? I`m married and have friends, but still I often feel myself lonely. I find all my relationships somehow superficial without deeper connection. I was the only child in my family and since my childhood I have had to do everything on my own and independently. As a teacher I worked almost alone and nowadays as a spiritual counselor, I´m working alone again! Once I`ve needed help, there has seldom been anyone to give me a hand. What do I need to learn? Why all this? ~Jaana, Finland
ANSWER: You have dug a “pity pit” for yourself and jumped in. During your life you had all these expectations of what a big, loving family would be like and mourn that it never happened. With this “model” of a family in place, you swam in a sea of aloneness.
You soothed yourself by becoming independent of the assistance of others. You become so self-reliant that others got the feeling that you did not wish to have anyone help you – you could do it alone. You sensed that opening yourself to others would make you too vulnerable.
The continuance of your earlier separation from a community has now become a pattern that you find difficulty shedding. The family and friends you have are kept at a certain distance from you because you don’t feel worthy of their love and acceptance. Unconsciously you don’t expect anyone wants to help you.
Your first step toward a different life has to be recognizing that you lack self-love. Your dependence on yourself keeps you from loving yourself because you feel it is a punishment, that you deserve not having the support of others.
You are a fantastic soul who has all the powers and abilities of Source, from whom you came into existence. Your essence is of Source – all unconditional love. Your guides and all of the other souls are waiting for you to allow yourself to acknowledge that they are there waiting to join you. Connect with the energy of the universe and your brethren. Create a vision that accepts who you truly are. Join in the celebration of a human life where anything is possible.