Lessons are overwhelming
QUESTION: Masters, for me, it is not clear what role I have come to do on Earth. It seems that I have had traumas more than I can take. Abuse, rape, alcoholic father, mother with mental disease, drugs, much more. Now I have problems with my sons. What I should do with my sons? I’m in therapy but is it enough? I can’t get in meditation to the state that I can discuss with the highest self. Sometimes I feel that I have to give up this all. I’m so tired. Am I designed myself a new job and what it could be? I think my job now is too heavy to me. I like it but other persons (staff) are so negative and disordered. Where is my happiness? And can we get bigger department? This is too small for us. ~Susa, Finland
ANSWER: You have been to Earth many times and have done most of the simple lessons. This time you wanted to be challenged in a couple of different ways. Your ability to manage the earlier part of your difficulties did not mean you were finished.
Your first problems occurred in your childhood, and now you have the holdover into adulthood. The antagonists this time are your boys. You are dealing with it as you dealt with all other problems – slowly and methodically.
You are able to get into meditation, but you have yourself convinced – right now, anyway – that you are unable to. Start with giving yourself enough time that you will not be interrupted. Begin by visualizing a quiet place where no one can find you and interfere with you. Gradually spend more time each time you do this, and soon you will be able to spend as much time as you wish.
You are tired because you are not getting rid of the negativity of others around you. Any time you feel sadness or negativity, consciously push it aside and fill its space with unconditional love for all the hard work you have done in this life. Honor the accomplishments you have completed. Survival is a huge success.
You are overly sensitive right now, and that is why the negativity of your coworkers is affecting you to such a degree. Don’t pay any attention to them. Always bring in unconditional love for the great job you are doing and ignore everything else.
Happiness arises from within. You have to allow yourself to see the beauty and happiness in you. Be very present in the moment, not worrying about the past or the future, just enjoying the magnificence available in the present. Love yourself, and that love will gather universal love to you.