Creating a future

Question: Masters, for a very long time, I have had this inexplicable feeling that I may not live up to the age of 25 years. It feels as if I will go “home” either before I am 25 or during my 25th year. I cannot see myself living beyond these years. I always feel as if my true “home” is somewhere beyond the stars and there are 4 souls awaiting my return. I have always been suicidal because I cannot accept my current incarnation. An Akashic reader told me that this feeling is symbolic of a spiritual transformation that I will face during this period. Whereas an astrologer said that I will lead a luxurious life in the future. I really do not want anything more but to just go “home” and be in peace. Can you explain to me what I am feeling? ~Vaishnavee, Singapore

ANSWER: You are creating a belief system that is impacting everyday of your life. This is sabotaging your ability to live in the moment and enjoy the flow of the universe around you. When you erect a boundary around you it is impossible to see beyond that barrier. Your restriction is an age related one. This is not set in stone since none of your life lessons contain a specific end point.

The human mind and intention is very strong and powerful. American Indians used to decide when they wished to return Home. They would take themselves out into the woods, sit down by a tree, and have their soul leave their physical body. This is in essence what you are preparing yourself for. Why? There is much more you have not completed of your intended lessons.

Stop trying to have others make your decisions for you. You consult seers to get different points of view. You accept those which agree with your dreams and play around with anything which does not. You are the creator of your future not the energy others read from around you.

Nothing is stagnant. Everything is in flux. You can observe all the possible directions which are available or you can fixate on a single destination and close your eyes to the other possibilities. The decision and direction is yours.

All souls came from somewhere else but you have all eternity to return there. Don’t be in a hurry you have many more than four souls awaiting you, but you can contact them from here and let them help guide you.