How connection raises questions
QUESTION: Masters, I am really finding it very difficult at the moment keeping faith in my abilities, feeling self-love and trusting my intuition. I understand that situations of late have come up to help me deal with this and for me to heal past emotional wounds. But I am particularly struggling with my partner’s apathy, lies and betrayal. I wish to give my baby the best start in life and I really am undecided whether remaining with him (helping him to develop self-awareness and integrity) will benefit us and our growth. But most of all I am starting to question whether my suspicion and uneasy feelings are actually from intuition, and need to know whether it is just paranoia and fear based from his lies of the past.~ Moomi, UK
ANSWER: You have traveled very far along your path of enlightenment. As you progress you will find that those persons who have been accompanying you for years, and are seemingly on a par with you, suddenly no longer understand you—or you them. It is impossible for one person to get another to accept guidance unless that person is ready to move forward.
As you have grown, you have been bringing to yourself those things you need to experience to complete various life lessons. The choices of the type of energy, whether negative or positive, and the way you perceive your contact with others are solely within your purview. Your intuition has become clear and powerful; let it help direct your choices based upon how the feelings resonate with you.
Your partner is a selfish individual whose ego controls his actions. He is not interested in anyone else and does things for his own gratification. The tendency toward lies, betrayal, and spiritual apathy is part of his personality. He is not interested in developing self-awareness and integrity, so trying to assist him will only lead to wasted time and heartache.
With your heightened awareness, the suspicions of old are easy to recognize and diagnose for exactly what they are. Your only fear concerns your feelings about yourself and whether you can make the decisions that will be the best for you and your child. There is fear of the unknown: What will it be like if you go it alone? Can you make it?
You have been creating the reality you have needed to get the wisdom you currently possess. Use that same ability to create the world you wish to live in.