Buried in doubts
QUESTION: Masters, I am studying to be an arts therapy instructor but I do not know how to make it to be my living. The school is also very expensive and I am worried about if I will be able to continue my studies to the end. The studying feels right for me (among other things, I have a feeling it is an important part of something bigger of which I don’t know much about yet), but it is difficult to follow my heart when financial issues are always worrying me. Is this a question of faith or letting go or what? I also have a very rough time right now with my son, any advice on how to help him to grow up and not turn us all in to nervous wrecks? I have a wonderful loving boyfriend. What is the meaning of our relationship in this life since he does not seem to want any more commitments and yet I sense him as a spouse to me? ~Sanna, Finland
ANSWER: You live in your emotions. You let judgment of what the world thinks is right and wrong control your daily thoughts. The default energy of Planet Earth is negativity because that is the only place where it exists, and people cling to it to have the lessons they chose. Lessons come in negative patterns, and learning them means figuring out how to turn the feelings into positive events.
When you concentrate all, or most, of your energy on negativity—what can go wrong or cause you pain—you reinforce the negative energy around you. Thinking negative thoughts brings negativity to you because the universe perceives it is negativity that you desire. On the flip side, if you see success and positive outcomes, the universe showers you with positive feelings and people.
You must make the choice of the type of environment in which you want to live. Imagine a positive result in school, finances, and a beautiful beneficial career. Have faith and the vision that you will succeed in all aspects of your life.
When it comes to your son and boyfriend, they have their own lives to lead. Your son must find his own sense of responsibility for his actions. With your boyfriend it is only you who sees a marriage. He truly does not want a commitment, so you need to decide whether to stick around and see if he will ever change his mind.