Rollercoaster of life

QUESTION: Masters, I have been on an intense spiritual path now for 20 years and I’m still sometimes hit with tremendous feelings of self doubt whether I’m making any progress, feeling out of alignment and depressed. Sometimes, though, I feel very in touch with my true self. The past 7 years I have been in a rapid expansion process from an energy practice I do. However, 2 years ago when my mother came to live near me, my energy became very heavy like I’m being pulled down by heavy weights. I walk my dog a lot but am often out of breath walking fast or up a hill. I don’t know what is going on, or if there is anything I can do to help overcome this. I have also gained weight and often feel drained in the late afternoon, although I am usually quite energetic in the mornings. I would really appreciate some input from you about my journey and whether I am just going through a rough patch and will emerge if I just keep going.      ~ Shayne,  UK

ANSWER: You are participating in the rollercoaster of life. The human body is bombarded by all kinds of emotional and physical changes throughout the life path. The bouts of self doubt, wobbly balance, and depression are all signs of the various stages the soul goes through during a life experience. As you leave one phase of lessons and proceed to the next your body has to adjust.

When a soul is engaged in intense spiritual work the effect upon the body is even more pronounced. You are removing some of the protective layers of third-dimensional padding from the soul and taking the full impact of each event. Time is needed to reach a state of equilibrium.

The proximity to your mother has thrown you back to some earlier life lessons that you had not completely cleared. Your weight gain is protection you unconsciously feel you need to protect yourself from unpleasant memories. Your body is not used to the added bulk so it gets tired easily. You need to examine the feelings that have crept into your life since her arrival. Ask yourself why you are you having these sensations-the answers will surprise you.

Once identified, decide whether you wish to maintain these beliefs as your own, or if it serves you better to get rid of them. These are all planned lessons appearing so you may learn from them.