Afraid to let go
QUESTION: Masters, I have had two past-life regressions and one life-between-life session, and was unable to regress although I was in a very relaxed state. I have also attended a shamanic workshop and tried to journey/meditate on my own. I also had a soul retrieval done. I get nowhere with these things and feel very frustrated about it. Am I being blocked or unconsciously blocking myself? I want to use these tools to get to know myself better and would greatly appreciate any light you could shed on this for me. ~Vicki, Spain
ANSWER: Being in a relaxed state and being able to let go of the outcome are two entirely different things. You have a need to know what is going to happen and to be able to control the results. Vulnerability frightens you. You have had enough hurt in this life and in past lives that you will not permit circumstances which will make you feel even a little uncomfortable. If you are not sure what will come out, or even what might be said, you don’t allow yourself to say or think about anything.
You will first have to deal with this fear of the unknown. All of the procedures that you have mentioned doing or, rather, trying, involve digging into the deep dark recesses of your unconscious. You must learn to sense the feelings that are produced in your body by mental and psychological stimuli generated by this type of activity. These will appear as vague sensations of fear, doubt, or unease. This is the place where your body unconsciously throws up a blockade to your innermost thoughts. You are then virtually shut out of anything but conscious memories.
To access your unconscious you must break down the barriers. This starts with dealing with the surface fears. Every time you feel fear or doubt, stop and say to yourself: “What am I feeling about this?” When you sense that feeling—it may be from an event or the comment of a person—ask, “Do I believe that this is real in my life at this time?” When you see how much is being held in fear that has no effect on your life today, you can just erase it from your unconscious and it will no longer bother you. If you decide the thoughts are still active, you know what you have to work on. It will be a gradual process but it will make you barrier free so you may then access the unconscious and deal with the hidden problems.