Fed up with life
QUESTION: Masters, I am so angry with all Spiritual Guides. I don’t know why I am experiencing the life I have, but whatever the reasons are, I don’t want this lesson/life anymore. I really want to find a romantic relationship, but it has never happened to me. I am asexual, gay, have a very particular personality, struggle with mental health issues, and I am not within the society’s views of beauty, so I am aware of the difficulty. But even when I met compatible people, no one ever chooses me. For many years I was holding out hope, but now I hate being in this situation and I beg every day to find ANYTHING. Whatever person, even an abuser, will work. I can’t take this bad life path anymore. Why is no one listening? Why am I not allowed to change this?? (I tried, in all physical, spiritual, and energetic ways) ~Gabbie, USA
ANSWER: Have you finished throwing your little temper tantrum? There is no need to blame anyone but yourself for the life you are living because you planned it before entering that body. No one makes decisions for a soul’s journey but that soul. Once on Earth, each soul, now a human being, creates their own reality.
A reality is controlled by the beliefs you choose to have regulate and control your life. In the beginning these come from parents, teachers, and society. You have to learn that they can be exchanged for something you desire. Creating a reality occurs by accepting that you have the ability to manifest things necessary to complete your chosen lessons.
Your first job is to accept that you are a piece of Source energy and are beautiful and deserving of love. The problem is that you can only love another to the degree that you love yourself, and with your current state of self-hatred, no one wants to be anywhere near your energy.
You are wallowing in self-pity and insisting that someone else has caused all this and they need to change things immediately. Others don’t have to listen; it is up to you to just believe and take action. Your attitude is like saying you don’t want to watch what is on television, but you are waiting for someone else to come and change the channel instead of getting up and doing it yourself.
“Good” changes cannot occur in negativity. For this reason, you must learn to step away from negative thinking and activities and bring in positive, loving energy. Your essence and the rest of the nonphysical universe is composed of unconditional love. Every time you start getting depressed, upset, or condemning of your condition, stop and relax into unconditional love because it is available all around you. In that state, examine what is happening. Send away the negative feelings and replace them with loving energy. This will – and you can – change your environment.