Conflicting feelings
QUESTION: Masters, I’m living a spiritual awakening and find myself sometimes with a lot of light and other times, especially with my husband and my mother, I feel a lot of anger at them. This is a very intense feeling that I do not know why it happens. I’m afraid to end up separating from my husband because we have a baby of 8 months. I am also trying to put together a holistic space to help others, which is my work here on Earth. I would like some words of guidance! ~Laila, Brasil
ANSWER: As you progress along your spiritual path, you go from an arena of mostly negative energy into choosing to turn all negative instances into positive, loving ones. This is not done with everything in your life all at once. You must approach each pocket of negativity and decide what to do with it. If you leave it alone, it maintains an influence on you whenever you are near it.
The anger you sense for your husband and mother has to do with the way they treated you in the past, before you woke up and chose to move away from their type of energy. When they were bombarding you with negativity and mentally and emotionally abusing you, before you realized this could happen only if you allowed it, you built up this inner anger over their actions. Now it is being released because you no longer fear them or think that you have to put up with their nastiness.
You have total freedom of choice to decide what comes next in your life. You can dedicate yourself to your work and surround your physical body with unconditional love so that you are no longer affected by your family’s negativity. Your child will feel the negativity until they recognize that it is not directed at them. You must decide if it is possible for the two of you to find a way to thrive in this environment or if it is best that you move on.
Your work will put you mostly in positive energy. Use that as a base for living your life. Negativity cannot exist in the presence of unconditional love. With your intention, send love to those who are negative to assist them in finding their way out of that energy into positive loving energy. Don’t try to “think” your way out of any situation; always ask yourself how you “feel” about what is happening.