Self-punishment
QUESTION: Masters, I awoke to the possibility of, in a past life, having murdered someone in jealousy. A horrific period of poisoning secondary to this awakening (is this the result of me punishing myself or reaping the karma?) made me lose the ability to have relationships physically and mentally. I worry I have more physical challenges to face (cancer) still as a consequence and don’t know what to do. My life’s work involves integrating two huge specialties and building a new career, yet it is killing me to do so. Is life still punishing me or do I need to build my own family now and let career go? Will this heal the physical wounds? This all is overshadowed by the evil global elite that use occult knowledge to perpetuate suffering, knowledge which then puts me into a vicious cycle of me learning methods to counteract, having less time for relationships and career. ~May, UK
ANSWER: There is no such thing as karma or punishment for what you have done in another life. It was your choice at that time to be able to experience the feelings that could only be had by living through the jealousy. Your reactions now come from not understanding why the past happened, and allowing yourself to feel blame, shame, and guilt for a simple life lesson that society tells you was wrong.
You are continuing to punish yourself by your actions. Stop right now! Reach inside and find the unconditional love that is there. In the presence of love, fear, hate, and loathing cannot be sustained. It is time to get rid of all the negative emotions and feelings that you have been holding on to; they do not have to be there.
Until you start removing the negativity and replacing it with positive ideas, feelings, and emotions, you will continue to suffer. You do not have to suffer or go through any more of the mental, physical, and emotional turmoil that you have previously believed you had to endure. Start manifesting only positive thoughts and environments.
Take care of yourself. The global elite you fear will affect you only if you give them the power to enter your world. Ignore them and they will move on to others whom they can terrorize.