To stay or to go
QUESTION: I am having problems in my marriage. I love my husband and I know that he loves me. He is not very awakened or self-aware. His only concerns are about his image as seen by others, and while he tolerates my meditation and healing practices, he doesn’t want to know anything about them. I sense that we are growing apart but I fear leaving him. What should I do?
ANSWER: This is one of those questions to which we can only answer that you must exercise your freedom of choice. You entered this marriage when quite young and have thrived on the independence it gave you from your own upbringing. During this union you have reached out and experimented with life energies in the form of meditation and healing, learning more about yourself constantly. Your husband has only concerned himself with trying to please others in business. His identity is as a trusted employee. To others he does not have an individual identity such as you have developed.
Nothing is right or wrong, but have you not felt your energy being very low in his presence? He delights in your development. Your energy feels excellent to him and he sucks it like a lamb from a teat at every opportunity. He is not as old a soul as you and does not have your wisdom. The lessons he chose for this lifetime are mostly about ego. Your lessons are concerning self and cosmic awareness and helping others.
Unfortunately you will not be able to help him unless he wants to be helped. Your path is much higher than his and you would have to kneel down to assist him, if he chose to be assisted.
Your fear arises from the unknown. You went from your family to your husband’s home and know nothing else. Just as you have learned so much about yourself and your strengths, so would you be able to make your own way without either of these family domiciles. You need and deserve to have a soul who is of your same nature, one who wants to learn and grow in awareness and be able to share with you on a daily basis. There are souls like that out there.